One day my doctor told me I had Myasthenia Gravis & warned me that there are certain medications I can’t take or it will affect my body badly. So I read up on all I could about this condition and discovered that every muscle in my body would deteriorate to the point where even breathing and swallowing would be affected.

So it could be a death sentence if I took the wrong medication. Injections were mentioned but the correct dosage had to be found, and it was not guaranteed to work for everyone. So it is a case of trial and error, and I fear needles so didn’t like that idea. I had asked what medications I should avoid and he said, don’t worry your doctor will know. Then my migraine pills stopped working so I had to ask my doctor for something different, and I reminded her of my MG so please be careful. She said, these won’t do you any harm, but 20 mins after popping a pill the muscles in the back of my neck constricted, pulling my head back, as my brain felt like it was floating in water. I couldn’t look down at my feet for a week as my neck muscles were so tight, and my brain jolted heavily when I walked.

And although that sensation eventually eased off, little did I know this had triggered what they had warned me about, and every muscle in my body started to deteriorate. It took 6 months till I could hardly lift my arms to get a mug from my cupboard, and I could hardly lift my feet to step up a pavement. I had no strength left in my tongue to form words and would slur my words, saying zee instead of thee, my breathing was so shallow I could play dead as my chest hardly rose. And I hardly had strength to climb into my car and pull the seat belt over my shoulder. But I had to drive because I couldn’t walk, and I would crawl up the stairs to bed every night on my hands and feet as I couldn’t stand properly.

I knew within a matter of weeks I would be bedridden, then only the inevitable, final decline could follow. I could not accept that, and would not allow that to happen, as my mind raced my body couldn’t walk let alone race, yet I had no answers. I knew nothing about the Law of Attraction back then, but I was determined I wasn’t just going to just lie down and die. I was so weak I really needed to stay in bed, but knew if I did, it was over, I would never get up again.

And by now it felt as if all lubrication had disappeared between my joints as they cracked and locked. But unwittingly I had done 2 things… the first thing was my sheer determination, I was not going to give in and accept this fate despite the outcome being so grim. I decided I was going nowhere, so the universe received that no nonsense message loud and clear, so source energy had no choice but to respond to my thoughts, dogged determination and unwavering belief I can live.

The 2nd thing I did was ask god for help yet I was a complete atheist, but don’t we all pray to god in desperate times? And the next day a thought just popped into my mind, which said, when in your life was you at your fittest? And then I remembered a holiday in Canada when I swam in a pool every day. I was also at my happiest… young, sun tanned and in love. So that memory served me well as I pondered it daily, and that triggered every cell in my broken body to reach that very same place… the universe had given me the answer, so I went swimming!

I started in the kid’s pool, as being so weak I would have drowned in the big one. I only did 15 minutes then I could hardly drag my weight out of the water, and while feeling so weak and shaky I could hardly dress myself. But I had pushed myself to my limit the first day, and this exercise was so draining it took me 6 weeks to recover from my swim. But as soon as I was able, 6 weeks later I went again, then again in another 6 weeks, and again. And although it was exhausting, and I had so many colds, and migraines inbetween to stop me, yet felt nothing was improving, I kept at it, as something in me told me this was my only chance.

But it did one thing for me, it kept me out of bed, so swimming had stalled the deterioration in my body, hidden improvements were happening. So whenever I was able I went again, and again, till I could finally go twice a week, then I went 3 times. And my time in the pool increased until I could swim an hour every day.

It took 6 months to regain my muscle strength, including talking, breathing and swallowing properly. And then I started walking for an hour in the countryside, once, then twice a week as my leg muscles built up more strength, because water buoyancy hadn’t built them up completely. I lost weight, felt fitter, younger and was happier, matching the memory of how I was in Canada. Yet so many of us look at our old, pain ridden, diseased body, then think of our healthier, younger, slimmer self and say, I’ll never be like that again. So the universe grants our wish! But I wanted different, and received it, just as anyone could if they can believe it.

I had no idea swimming would work, so it’s not like I automatically knew I had the answer, I just followed instruction and went where my intuition led, and it brought me back to full health without any medical intervention. Just thought, belief and determination alone, and deciding I was not going to accept this fate. So all those factors played a part in bringing me back to that same place. When diagnosed we often want a miracle, expecting someone else to come along and save us, when just like me and my story, that miracle is already hidden inside.

God sent help, as these words are help from the universe for you. I am just the vessel that conveys them, so this is really up to you. Use your mind, power and belief to change things in the body. Others can give advice, healing prayer, or medical treatment as your thoughts and belief enhance any treatment you receive. You have the last word… your thoughts, command, belief, inner frequency and vibration is your ultimate power. Healing can take a long time, as it did for me, or can happen over night, as it did years later when I spoke of my childhood abuse.

Of course we are often told it’s not right to think of self, that’s a selfish act, who do we think we are? Well, we are spirit, we are the divine, we are the power, the creator, the connection to all that is. That’s the reality of who we really are, if only we could realise our own spiritual truth. So every illness is different, one may be worse than another, but guess what? Neglecting ourselves, working hard to put everyone else first causes stress and exhaustion, and stress causes a break down in mind and body. But the body doesn’t know that unless the mind tells it, so be kind to yourself. Start telling your mind and body the truth, you’re a special spiritual being, you deserve phenominal health, and life really is worth living!