If you can forgive in your heart you will heal in your mind…

A good friend of mine listened to my story of childhood abuse, heartache and loss and wondered how I had survived all of that. Then I wrote my book about it and put quite a bit of humour, occasional dark humour into the book. She was appalled and asked me how I could even joke about something so horrific? She did not, and could not understand it. Why?…

Because she hadn’t been there, but she also hadn’t read the book, she just heard me making light of it. And it’s a bit like grief, everyone copes in their own way and reacts differently, but this was me, and I had to be honest about who I was, tell it as it is and how I felt at that time. Don’t get me wrong, there was nothing funny about what I suffered in the moment, the jokes were my coping strategy afterwards and inbetween tears as I revisited my story and wrote those horrific events. My humour can be so dark it is not for the likes of our sensitive social media platforms today.

I daren’t write down or voice what I’m thinking sometimes, but I can laugh out loud and it helps me heal. Then I found a writing piece that explains the dark humour of the abused perfectly, which gets us through such traumas. And each theraputic, light bulb moment also helps our healing process. And when we do heal, our story, resilience and coming through the other side helps other long time sufferers heal, it gives them hope. I can’t say I am grateful for all the trauma I’ve been through in my life, but it made me who I am today and led to my awakening, so I’m thankful for that at least. I hated my father all my life, but after writing my book I found forgiveness in my heart, and a little while back I closed my eyes and suddenly saw a vision. My parents were walking toward me arm in arm and greeted me with a smile. I could feel pure love eminating from them, and I felt a love for my father I had never felt in my whole life.

I loved them and I thanked them for playing their part in shaping me and my path. There was a real bond between us, I could feel it without words, just a knowing that they came here to play a part to help my spiritual growth, it was a moment of pure love, enlightenment and deep gratitude. Mistakes and suffering is life’s lessons, this is about spiritual growth and ascention. The old soul is born to parents and grand parents who are way behind in their souls journey, they are often young souls, old energy, sent to teach the wiser old soul brand new lessons to help us grow and ascend.

We often feel different, lost, alone, not of this world, don’t fit in and hate to follow the crowd, but so often do just to seem normal. We need long periods of rest and isolation, and may be given that through loss, death, illness or moving home, county or country, losing touch with old friends. Our journey can be centuries old experiencing everything life after life time can throw at us. And when I think of all the different things I have experienced in just one lifetime then the old soul has been through every scenario… From being male and female, being the goody and the baddy, from childless to having many kids, big or small family, from disease, drowning, suicide, murder or dying by the brave sword on the battle field.

Being black or white, healthy or disabled, blind or deaf, lived in different countries and spoken different languages, lost our family in the Spanish flu or been burned at the stake as a witch, through many lifetimes we may have experienced it all. We may have been a famous film star, musician or singer, this is why we often call a toddler a little old man, because we recognise the old soul in him or her. It is why some are born male yet feel they are female, because they may have died suddenly as a female and are male on rebirth, entering too quickly rather than waiting in spirit a little while longer. And did they die as an elderly lady spending their whole life as a female, then suddenly they are male? The soul remembers that even when the human form doesn’t. But sometimes we do remember, that is why some of us have an irrational fear of cancer, heights, water or flying, because we may have died by drowning, in a plane crash or falling from a great height in our past lives, like the little boy who hated passing near the twin towers site, as he said he lost his life falling from those towers.

And children may be white American yet know the streets of India, and still have family there today when they have never been there in their life, but can still speak the language because they were there in a past life. So when we say our history, our culture and ancestors? Are we sure who they really were? We have been kings and queens, rich and poor, we have many preferences and love to dress up, in 1930s style, war time, cherokee indian or medievil dress as we are obsessed with certain eras, feeling those times are in our soul… they are, they are a part of our DNA from long, long ago.

So the old soul is a wise soul because of so many life experiences, they have built resilience, learnt true compassion and forgiveness, doesn’t suffer fools, sees through the lie and speaks the truth. The old soul is here today to guide us through this difficult time, they are the awakened, the light workers exposing the truth, the oracles, seeers, mediums and channelers being guided by spirit and passing on their message to you.

The old soul has suffered and sacrificed so much to be here, to help all of humanity now, and so many didn’t even know this was their purpose. But we are all slowly awakening to the truth of who we are, to our mission and purpose. Some carry out their mission still not knowing why, they are just driven to do things, to seek truths and speak up despite the consequences. This is the result of centuries old, suffering, loss, death, pain and poverty, it is the result of finally letting it all go and healing from that trauma, and finding it in our ancient hearts to forgive, as forgiveness heals the world. Hatred and revenge is the hot coal we hold in our hand ready to throw at our enemy, we may miss our target, and in the meantime it only burns us.

We never have to tell our enemy or abuser we forgive them, this is for our healing not theirs. But like the attached umbilical cord, once we cut the cord we free us both. So if we can let the past go, forgive in our hearts, we not only heal ourselves but change the energy around us and the universe.