Negative emotions are brought on by negative thought, but nobody likes to admit they are negative, yet most people are. And like the alcoholic in denial we can only help ourselves and change things if we can admit those negative thoughts and feelings, at least to ourself. Many people don’t even recognise any negativity in themselves as they constantly feel down, yet say, we have to be positive. That is when they are looking at the negative thing that has just happened and trying to convince themselves a brighter positive side exists. One way to recognise negative thought in ourself is to look at our life, our home, environment, friends, job or money situation.

There is an emotional scale from 1 to 10 and we must work out where we are on that scale most days. I used to be at number one on the scale, and knew I was severely depressed, but when I reached a blah number 4, I classed that as a good day, and didn’t recognise how low that still was.

Reaching number 6 was a great day, I laughed and joked with freinds about my continual problems, financial or health wise, along with the state of my cluttered home. So at least I was positive about it right? Wrong! Those words, we have to laugh or we’ll cry, we have to look on the bright side, are just excuses to dismiss our negavive feelings. Saying we have to be positive is just a cover for our constant negativity, when what we really need to do is face our negative thoughts, feelings and depression

We often feel low, or just ok, and most people get very busy all day long… working, cleaning, scrolling the internet, watching TV, anything to distract from their true thoughts and feelings. Then go to bed thinking of all the people and things that annoyed or upset us that day. And there is a lot of things going on more than ever these days to cause upset and anger.

And most of that is purposely planted to distract us from positive thought and good feeling. Because love, light, joy and peaceful feelings within us hold the power, not just to change our life and environment, but harness the power to change the world. And to discover our own power, change, creativity and independance, means to become the self sufficiant adult, to take responsibility and lose the need to depend on others. And that means those who give, or help us, with conditions attached lose their power over us. As we don’t need them anymore and they may even lose their job and identity, as their life’s work solely relies on our dependance on their help.

So how do we recognise our own negativity? The truth is we do because a certain feeling accompanies negative thought, and it is this feeling we try to ignore. We might stuff it down with food and end up obese feeling even worse. It makes us too lazy with no drive, or too busy, to forget it because facing this plummeting feeling in our gut, and dealing with it is far harder than the excuse not to. It hurts, it is painful and most important of all, we fear those bad feelings. Because they come from a place of old, from long ago painful memories, and often recent memories, which we ourselves created through our thoughts of past wrongs or regret. Positivity is love, negativity is the lack of love, usually feelings of unworthiness and a low self esteem. I had no confidence and felt unworthy for many many years.

Then one day I blurted out my long held secret of chidhood abuse and my whole world changed over night. Something had awoken in me, and had broken the chains that bound me, and there was no going back into my little box. I suddenly saw things more clearly, I found god, found myself, the person I always was, hiding in the dark behind a mask all my life. The happy, confident little girl I had been before the abuse stole my identity.

And what I noticed was, through this joy, just how low I had really been on that emotional scale. This was real happiness, true peace, joy and contentment. I shed my old skin, lost weight and all my health problems dispersed over night. But my emotions were so noticeable now, I would feel on top of the world for days as I had shot to 10 at the very top of the scale, and it felt incredible. And because of those feelings, so many, many miracles happened each day. I could think a thought and hey presto, there it was, manifesting in my reality. This was pure magic, then something bad might happen and my feelings plummeted right down to number 1 on the scale. Now, where before there had been little change between 1 and 4, from 10 to 1, boy did I notice and wow, did it feel bad. So bad I just had to get back up that scale of sheer joy at all costs, so I lived for that high.

And I feared the lows, I no longer liked or accepted them, it was no longer normal for me. I was someone new now and wasn’t prepared to sink into negative submission. I would eventually find myself back up the scale then would fear my next plunge into oblivion. And so it would inevitably happen. because not only do we fear, we attract, which I didn’t know at the time, but we are also emotional beings, so we must accept the highs and lows, but most of us don’t. But I now realise acceptance is the key!

We shy away from bad feeling, we shun it, cover it, ignore it, distract from it. We will do anything but face up to it, and so I did this for years, trying to stay on my positive emotional high. But as this cosmic universal law states, what we resist persists, whatever we fight, fights back, and so it did as thoughts that repeatedly brought back those negative feelings kept raising their ugly negative head. And as time passed they invaded my psyche even more, and that attracted more financial difficulties while I was seriously trying to work on myself to attract more wealth in my life.

Then only 2 nights ago it finally clicked as I said sod it, I can no longer fight these feelings so just accept them, go with it, let them do whatever the hell they please, and within a matter of seconds, both thought and the bad feeling was gone. Instead of ignoring the awful feeling in my stomach I had focused on it, faced that fear, ok let’s go there, how bad can this be?

Then later a negative thought invaded my space again and my stomach churned. Then just as I was about to start the battle with it again, instead I remembered what I had done earlier, so again I went straight to it, gave the fear my full attention rather than try to avoid, ignore or dismiss it. And once more as my thoughts turned back to positive ones and I felt good, I realised I had totally forgotten negative thought and bad feeling.

So instead of ignoring the thought I faced the fear and had 2 negative purges on day 2. I also faced the thing that upset me and thought how bad can it be, do your worst, and it shrunk in power, it collapsed in fear. So as the ancient saying goes, face your fears as their ferosity reduces when we do, and we see there is no monster under the cover of our brave beings.

Then we can happily skip off into the sunset leaving old energy, old karma, negative thought and bad feeling behind, to venture pastures new. And within 2 days of focusing on that scary feeling in my gut, 4 times my mind took me down that negative path, 4 times I said ok, we’ll go there and you can do your worst. And 4 times those thoughts and feelings dispersed in seconds, so I could get back to focusing on what I wanted!

Then I said to the universe, right, I’ve cracked it, so let’s move on, let’s stop mucking about… give me 3 numbers on the lottery. The very next day 3 numbers came up, plus the Thunderball, and I won £250 on the lotteries. I now feel free of all negativity, I can accept those natural emotions, face them rather than fear them, deal with them and move on to better things.

And I now ask myself, was it really this simple to leave the past behind and move on to better things? Will my financial situation change merely because of this realisation and deep inner change? Try it for yourself, notice the negative thought that creeps in, recognise the gut wrenching feeling. Don’t try to distract yourself, face it head on, focus on it, sit with it, cuddle, comfort and forgive it as if forgiving the child in you. Because that is where this feeling comes from, your childhood fears and trauma…

Let it go…