I always buy my favourite scratch card, which is a bingo card of 5 grids, with a side part of numbers, and every number on the card is there in the grid, but if it’s not, it appears in the side numbers. And although I loved to play this card I had never won a bingo line on it. So I came to expect no win, and that trend continued until I believed I could change this trend.

So I just decided there was no reason to lose, it is not an unlucky, useless card, it is just my thoughts about never winning on that card. So thought, someone else is picking the winning ones, and that can be me. And so I started winning many times on the card. I always got a full line, across, vertical or diagonal, but I could never win anything on the side numbers.

So again I decided it was possible to win on those too. Then I did, I got one number which was a win, then just a few days later, I got 3 numbers. Then I realised I’d won every aspect on the card, except for the 4 corners.

So I thought that’s what I want to achieve next! The 4 corners on 5 bingo grids is a cash win from £100, £1,000, £10,000 and the jack pot of £300,000.

I thought the £300,000 jack pot would be nice, but I don’t mind if I only won £100 as long as I get the 4 corners I asked for. As I once asked the universe for a card where every last symbol came out, and I got that wish, even though it wasn’t a jack pot win. Only around £25 on each symbol, so I won about £100 in all. So I just wanted the 4 corners I had asked for on this card. Then the last card I picked up Christmas week something really strange happened. Number 15 appeared, yet 15 was nowhere to be seen on the card. It wasn’t in any of the 5 grids and wasn’t in the side numbers.

And in 3 years of buying this card, that has never happened, there has never been a missing number. I got 3 corners on grid 5, the very last grid. And the last corner number I needed was 13. So close to 15 out of the 75 numbers on those cards. 1 and 3, which is also closest to the shape of a 5.

So had they made a mistake? Was it a miss print, or was it intentional? Did they have no intention of paying out on that card? Why did it not match? Why was it a dud number? Was it deliberate just to wind up the reciever? And out of 5 grids it just happened to be the £300,000 jack pot!

But although I was so close to such a huge prize I didn’t even get a small £3 winning line. Nothing but a clear loss, yet it didn’t wind me up, I never thought what could have been, instead I saw it as what will be. I saw this as a sign the universe had sent me to let me know my big win is very close

Then a few days later in America, someone won the power ball jack pot of 1.8 Billion on Christmas day! And my farty little card couldn’t even pay out a measly £300,000! Why not? Because they were in the zone, I’m not. They bought a ticket, didn’t care, have the money for most things they want anyway, was relaxed, off work, it’s Christmas and so it manifested.

Or so I imagine, what I know is we must be in the right place on the inside to receive, and so they were and I wasn’t. But through no feelings of frustration or thoughts of, ‘if only,’ brings me closer to great wealth. So I use this as a stepping stone, I imagine if it had been number 15 instead of 13, visualise what it would have been like to receive £300,000. Use that, not lose that and waste this dream, thought and wonderful rich feeling.

Then next time will be different as I create so many miracles I can do this!

And so can you!