I look at the country home, the lottery win and car I want, then my mind returns to what I have now, then goes back to all I’ve lost in the past. It knows me, wants to keep me in my comfort zone and trys to keep me safe. I want to change my financial situation, move forward, move on, yet my mind repeating the past keeps dragging me down and holding me back.

So every time I think of my new home, feel the wealth, space and luxury, own a dishwasher. And at the very least hang my clothes in a wardrobe, and have a flushing toilet my mind fights to keep me here. It doesn’t want to sell my books, because I may be seen in the world. It doesn’t want the world to hear my story, or share my knowledge, because I will be exposed.

The universe wants all of that for me, to live my best life, to share wisdom and help others around the world, as people like me are wasted in silence. Many are hidden in the shadows, as others replace us in the world, but my mind is a battle ground and I have been losing this battle for decades now

So every time my dreams are interrupted now with negative thoughts, I say, ‘feck off,’ I don’t need your advice, I no longer need you to keep me small, safe and anonymous. What is good about having so little, no space, no wardrobe, no toilet in a modern home in 2026? What is healthy about black mold around my windows, about having no money left for a pint of milk or bread by the end of each month, about often waiting till pay day?

What is so good about debt collectors at my door, about permanent rent arrears and bills I can’t pay? So sod your mind games, I don’t need you anymore. A jealous man or narcassist would supress me this way and tell me they are just keeping me safe. My mind is the narcassist that lies to me, holding me prisoner as the universe is the friend that says leave, you need to break free or you die here. And my friend the universe is so right.

The universe cares, nudges, whispers, reminds me of my power and who I am. My mind says no, stay here, step out and you will fail, be crushed. So I always now say, feck off, I don’t need you anymore, you are not my friend.

It is self sabotage, a fly in the ointment, a spanner in the works, a cog in the wheel. Shooting ourself in the foot by allowing this niggling gremlin to dictate our lives, a life we did not choose, seeded and planted by others! And now this deep subconscious gremlin has it’s teeth into us like a rabid dog that won’t let go. So we have to find ways, pleasant or unpleasant to shake it off. We have every right to be angry as it has caused unhappiness, stress and illness in the body, this sabotaging gremlin does us no favours.

So we have every right to shout and swear at this monster within, which has thrown a grenade into ever opportunity we ever had in life. We have every right to make a stand, say no, shout, ‘stop right there.’ I’m not havin it, you will no longer rule my day and ruin my life, while others succeed around me. This is it, I have had enough, my life starts here, right now!

So take this seriously, because this mind melting, self sabotage is serious, your anger and frustration is justified. Just think of the life you could of had if this gremlin’s constant back ground nagging had never existed. The devil on our shoulder, as god tells us we are worthy, we are loved, and can have it all, if we condemn and flick this clingy combatant off our other shoulder. It really is time to tell this destructive inner voice where to go, no more guilt, no shame, say it loud and clear when it pops up, feck orf!

It works, it cuts that devil’s voice off in it’s tracks, then I can get straight back to thinking of all the good things I want. It helps stop me looking at the state of my home, my debts, my money shortage and keeps me safe. It will lead me to great wealth and success I’m sure of it. So try it with me and it may help you too, because in the end we cannot let this devil win!