I often write posts telling others what a powerful spiritual being they are, and I do so many magical things, like watching ‘Tipping point’ on TV and picking the winner the moment I see the contestants and hear each one speak. There are 3 contestants and I can also pick who will be first out.

I watch ‘Who wants to be a Millionaire’ and pick who will be next in the chair, and 9 times out of 10 I’m right. I know nothing about horse racing but pick the Grand National winner, basically every year, and winners in every other race. I see a number that sticks out to me, the name, or the look and colour of the horse itself, whatever stands out at that time. I scrutinise them and it’s usually the last minute before they enter the stalls and if I like a few, they can come 2nd or 3rd. I once watched the Grand National with a friend, and they had placed a bet on a horse. I too had picked that horse and they were frantic as it was approaching the finish with 2 others. And I thought, chill out, it won long before the starter gun.

And this same person once took his young 9 year old son to the races, the boy picked a horse he liked. His dad told him that one wouldn’t win and persuaded him to pick another. This boy always won competitions and raffles, but he listened to his dad and chose another horse. Then the one he picked originally won the race! His dads horse came nowhere. Always follow your own instincts, inner voice and intuition, ignore most advice from others who believe big wins are impossible, life is hard. The child is a born winner and optimistic till that belief, playfulness and excitement is beaten out of them. As we say, look at my life, this is how the world works!

I win on the lottery most days, I expect to win and wonder what the heck is going on if I don’t, I am genuinely shocked and surprised. And so is my shop assistant, as she says, have you got no winnings today Linda, that’s not like you. Then I remember it doesn’t matter if I didn’t win that day, money will always come from somewhere, and it surely does, appearing out of the ether in the most magical ways. Last night I had my last lottery ticket before pay day today, so it didn’t matter if I won anything or not.

Then as the 5 main numbers started coming out of the machine, I kept thinking, number 1. But as each one dropped there were none of my own numbers. But still I imagined number 1 falling out next, till there was only the Thunder ball left. Then out of 14 Thunder ball numbers, the number 1 fell out of the machine, so I had a £3 win. That is a miracle in itself, but I could really do with the other 5 numbers, and I do have the power to do it.

Yet I checked my bank account, and as always it was the same old story, not enough to pay my internet bill, with only a single penny left again. So often completely empty before pay day. And I thought, I am always happy and excited when I perform absolute magic, yet after a life time of lack and struggle I still can’t raise enough to pay all my bills and fill my bank.

I can buy 3 scratch cards and pick the winning one before I scratch it off. I can pick the very next number or letter before I scratch it off. And the other day I had one number I needed to win, and said that number in my head, and it came up next. I never buy more than 4 cheap scratch cards, and always win on 2 of them because I expect to, this is how belief works.

Faith, expectation and knowing never fails us, hope, doubt, disbelief and uncertainty does. And sometimes I ask the question, do others win as often as I do? Then I will go into my local shop and someone in the queue watches me pick up my winnings from a collection of scratch cards, and lottery tickets and say, wow how lucky are you, I never win anything at all.

So the universe just gave me the answer to my question, and so not long ago I thought, do I win because I pick 2 or 3 of the same scratch cards, so one is always a winner and one isn’t? So what would happen if I got 10 of the same card. So for the 1st time ever, I tried that. And if I win on a few I haven’t lost all my money! But to my surprise I didn’t win on a single one.

Out of 10 cards not one single win, yet it didn’t bother me because the universe had just answered that question too. So there is no automatic win in every 2 cards, the wins only come because I expect them to. And I should know that, because I never used to win anything on my 2 favourite scratch cards until I decided there just has to be winners in those 2 cards.

And from that day, that simple change of mind I have won on them every time. And I can say I want to win a column and I do, then I say I want a diagonal win, and it happens next, then I want every prize on the card.

Again that has happened, but has been £5 or £10, so never the top million pound prize. But whatever I ask for or think of comes up, such as I can buy a lucky dip ticket, see the number, which then sticks in the mind and it comes out of the machine on the night. I have had many £3 Thunder ball wins on one random lucky dip ticket. And every Christmas I have 2 people in my home, and every single year without fail I buy just 3 scratch cards, so one each, and I choose who is going to win on theirs. And every single year, the person I choose is the winner as 2 of us lose, unbelievable!

Anyone can do this, you possess this exact same magical power that I once didn’t realise I had. As I was like the women stood behind me in the queue. Saying, wow, how lucky are you, because I never win anything! And I never did until I changed my mind and beliefs, till I found peace, joy and bliss from the depths of life long darkness and a deep depression.

So I do all this magic yet I’m sitting in a home that is falling apart, and I am being forced to look for help. But I look around me at all the jobs that need doing just to create bog standard living conditions. In other words just put a plaster over the disaster, and I think, surely if I can do all the magical little things that I do, then I can create a brand new home too.

I can just walk out and leave this cramped and cluttered, dangerously damp and derelict home behind. Such a powerful spiritual being doesn’t deserve this, you don’t deserve such conditions in your life either. We don’t deserve an empty wallet, purse or bank account, We don’t deserve debt, lack of food or not enough not only to struggle to pay our bills, but to live in luxury, with space, land and buy whatever we want, and survive!

We were never meant to go without anything in life, a home, food, heat, money, love, friends or good health, yet so many of us lack in these areas. So I was sitting thinking of the magic I create for myself, and of the state I am living in, which portrays my thoughts and belief in poverty each day.

This is just like Harry Potter, knowing there is something else out there, something more, something different, something magical inside of him. Yet not realising till he was informed of this magic, then discovered how powerful he truly was. Powerful enough to defeat real evil, as we all are.

But these dire situations happen for good reason, to push us out of our comfort zone, which is not comfortable at all. To push us into wanting something better for ourselves, and others! And this is all making me finally realise I do have the power to change, I can believe in real wealth.

I will get my new home, despite no real help from those telling me I can take a long time swapping this place for another, even smaller home. If I want bigger, better, more spacious and luxurious then that is up to me!

It’s my job, my responsibility to create the life I want, not expectations of all others around me, those who also do not recognise their own power, and rely on all others to help them. And yes we attract the right people to help us when in need. I just need to realise I have this phenomenal power on the inside, because when those right people are not showing up it’s my job, or my fault, or the universe saying, I know you want better. So by not supplying the help you need in this situation will force you to think better.

Force you to do better to create the wonderful life, home and money you really want. I see this, I know this, I want this, I’m ready, boy am I ready. I just have to apply the same magic to the bigger things that I apply to the little things. The money is coming, it is already there in things I have and in the things that are happening to me now. But am I going to wait many more months for that, when another summer is over, and I cannot enjoy sitting in a garden. I want and need to move into my paradise right now.

I have waited far too long, a life time too long, probably many life times too long. And so have you my fellow powerful being, we are all like little children learning to walk, once we stand up, the world is our own oyster.